Yeah, I've actually been kinda busy this week. Well, not really. More like I spent this week catching up on my work, my life, and a little bit of my sleep. I have not caught up to my sanity, but it had such a head start, I don't think it is EVER coming back. The unfortunate thing about having "free time" is that I, being my usual self, had time to think. And for all of you who know me well, you know this is not necessarily a good thing.

So this week I pondered, "why am I in law school?" The obvious answer is "to get an education, so I can be a lawyer, duh." But, honestly, I don't know if I want to be a lawyer anymore. And I am not quite sure I ever wanted to BE a lawyer. So then I go to the next answer, that some of my classmates use, which is, "the economy sucks." Of course, I can't use that excuse, since I had a job. One that I rather liked, actually. Now, granted, I was not going to work there forever, because one can only float on a boat in the Bering Sea for so long before the fun wears off, or until they become as nutty as the guys I worked with. But I could have easily worked there for another year or two. So I can't blame the economy. So I came up with another answer: because I had to have the highest degree in my immediate family, my mom has a masters, and I couldn't get into med school. Oh, and I have no business experience. Which, in retrospect, is a really really lame reason to go to law school.

Now, let it not be said that there are not parts of law school that I like. I had great profs last year, and some great ones this year as well. And I like working with my clients, and helping them and such. But, realistically, I am thinking I am not gonna be such a good lawyer. Not that I am not capable, but because I lack the vital interest to do a really good job. Ironically, I have noticed that although I supposedly have some decent brain power, it chooses what it wants to learn, and when it wants to learn it. And thus, if I don't find it interesting, it is like making a baby eat squished up peas - it is just a fool's folly to think you are not gonna get most of it all over the place, and very little is gonna stick.

Going with the theory that people actually read my blog (of which I don't think many people do) I think someone is gonna yell at me about this entry. So let me clear something up. I am not giving up, I am not stupid, and I will be a lawyer when I am done. But hell, at least I am finally realistic about this, and I can work with what I've got. It ain't a lot, but it is mine, and I shall push on, kicking legal booty along the way.

Oh, and as a very happy side note, it is my brother Joe's birthday today. So....HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOE!!! Love you lots, my favorite brother (ok, my only brother, but he's still my favorite....)